
Everything Stays
“Everything stays” is a poetry collection of 12 separate poems I wrote myself. These poems consist of various lengths, formats and subjects, as I didn’t want to be confined to one style of writing, because that wouldn’t reflect on who I am. That is my goal after all. Poetry and other forms of art have always been an outlet for my thoughts and ideas that I have a hard time sharing with others. While these poems may not seem tied together in any way, all of them share one common theme. Each poem speaks of an emotion or thought in my head that I couldn’t quite describe any other way. A lot of them are feelings of struggle with things like ADHD, grieving, regret, others reflect on old memories, friendships and relationships. The point of this collection is to express who I am not as a person, but a feeling.
Flowing Thoughts
Standing in the icy rapids
Faster than the mighty river
It's hard to fight against the current
The cold water makes me shiver
My flowing thoughts may overtake me
Pulling my body swiftly down
The water rushes to my lungs
My consciousness begins to drown
A single pill builds a dam
That slows the rivers flow
It gives me time to hold my ground
Holding on to what I know
Hard not relying on that dam
But it won’t always be there
I beg for the water to slow down on its own But the river never seems to care
Icarus
Who am I, if not Icarus?
Wax wings bring bursts of
passion Drawn to the sun
Like moths to a flame
What pulls me, if not fate?
Towards a glorious end
“Icarus, come down!” they cry
But my eyes know only summits
Who are they, if not shackles?
They who try to keep me grounded My wings are a harsh reminder
Of the cruel touch of normalcy
What is life, if not cruel?
Choices the sky makes for you
Affects a decision you cannot make
To a fate hidden under free
will
So who am I, if not Icarus?
Wax wings melt, a singe on skin
Enamored with the future I
burn up in the present
Opposites
I call it winter
You call it spring
I sit in silence
You tend to sing
I stand still
You dance carefree
It's no wonder
We never could agree
Deadlines
Deadlines decay dreams
Descending down dark drives
Dreary days delay
Drowning doves who fail to dive
Time constrains ideas
A Snake constricting beating hearts
Writer’s block blocks lead
Guessing blindly, throwing darts
Grades detain untamed passion
Ideas of A’s, like siren sounds
Deafens rationality
Thoughts of red pens bark like hounds
Answers silence questions
Raised hands choke under deep fog
Checkmarks target guesses
Lifeboats sink into the bog
Scars
Old friends, now forgotten
Words split my upper lip
Whispering between spruce trees
Memories etched into my skin
They leave, they leave
Conversations gone sour
Anger turns infectious
Knuckles sliced over a pointless game of cards
Passing by on pavement
Side glances, overflowing pride
Hoping for a movie scene look-back
But stubborn pride averts eyes
Bruises seemed nice then,
A careless declaration
The pitter patter of blood
A symphony of adolescence
Illusion (haiku)
Moonlight reveals you
An optical illusion
Shadows of young fools
Blood, Sweat, and Tears
They say all it takes,
Is blood, sweat, and tears
To build a future
And achieve greatness
Crimson graffiti art
Overwhelming adrenaline
Pavement shredding skin
Helmet hits the dirt
I followed, mindlessly
Running a marathon
Faucets in my pores
Leaving me behind
Saltwater seas cover eyes
Behind Hospital curtains
Little hands reach out
Too young to understand
They talk a lot about
blood, sweat, and tears
There’s no talk of rain
That washes all my work away
99 Cracked Pavement
Skating past a ragged home
Cracked pavement trips me up
A house I used to run from
Reduced to buttercups
Where I came from, long ago
Is not glamorous or pristine
Black mold choked my hallways
Fumes I wish I’d never seen
Walking home from football games
Down roads, dimly lit
Scary figures follow me
Heart sinks in a pit
Rolling chairs spinning fast
Smooth concrete races
“Helping” dad fix the car
Rust between the spaces
I did not come from grace
But I came from heart
Two Hard Working parents
Gave me a good start
Embers
Badly played acoustic guitars
Strummed off-beat to sing-a-longs
Bonfire glowing against night skies
Dancing, laughing, singing songs
Cheering counsellors, shouting kids
A game of tag spread across the night
Campfire prison for kids who lost
I guess we gave up, or lost the fight
Sitting there, on creaky stumps
Waiting for our dare to leave
Talking for eternity
Laughing so hard we can’t breathe
I may have lost the game that night
On my hand, a blue pen mark
But all in all, I was happier
Your light overtook my dark
Lighter Fluid (song)
You’re a girl with a match for a heart
And I have gasoline pumping through my veins
All it takes is a single spark
And we’ll both go down in flames
So I’ll light the match, I’ll light the fire
Scorch my heart on my own desire
Torch my clothes, ash my eyes
Telling myself all these stupid lies
‘Cause I can’t control my tone, my heart
So shock my ribs, give me a jumpstart
I’m walking towards the open flames
The things you say have me going insane
Somber Granite
You call my name
Yet you look right through me
I guess I took “be transparent”
A little too far
I wonder if you’ve forgotten me
Hovering over a cracked headstone
Echoes of forgotten happiness
Whispering through willow trees
Why don’t you visit me anymore?
Vines flourish over somber granite
There are no vibrant colours here
Only charcoal dresses and wilting flowers
So many others like me,
Waiting for family and friends
It breaks my decaying heart,
Remembering the forgotten
Stranger
It's beautiful, is it not?
Fresh faces, shimmering lights
The air is cool, pavement’s kind
But it is not mine to love
Breathing air, not meant for me
Shadows that don’t belong here
Staring down streets that aren’t mine
And maybe they never will be